Quickie

Heyyy everybody! This post would be just a quick and short one. Just wanted to update my readers on what I've been doing this week.

How's your day going so far? These few days my routine has been the same: Sleep till around 11am, then Breaking Bad movie marathon till night time, practice piano, talk on the phone then bed time. Yesterday I slept till 1pm. Ughh the latest of the holidays so far. I'm usually an early riser, so waking up when the sun is already high up makes me feel groggy and dizzy. :( Yes, my days have been boring but at least I'm enjoying the free time before my busy school schedule kicks in soon.

Breaking Bad is the only TV series that with every episode, they can make my eyebrows scrunch up so tightly together and my face into a way that I think would just remain there forever. I don't even where to begin to describe this show. All I can say is that the movie is gooood and leaves me wanting for more. I'm in Season 3 now so I guess I'll let you guys know more about the series later. :)

I wanted to spice things up today by not watching movies but cleaning up my room instead. Hahaha, I know I must be crazy. Anyway, it soon became unbearable because I was sneezing non stop due to my allergies to dust. I just got to realise that I have a lot of clothes and my closet is full. But still, I always have nothing to wear. *sighs* Anybody feel me? D: Although, I did find some cute matching outfits to wear in the near future. Anyway, I still don't know what to wear for my cousin's wedding tomorrow! HELP!

Leaving for KL this evening for my eldest cousin's bachelor's night, followed by his wedding ceremony tomorrow. I'm so happy for him and his fiance! CONGRATULATIONS, COUSIE! :D Will blog more about the wedding when I come back (hopefully) some pictures as well. I'm his pianist for the ceremony and I'm freaking out because I have stage fright and I might forget all the songs. Do pray for me that everything goes well. Ooooh I'm also in charge of the registration table thingy, you know when people sign their names and all. I'm super excited. Everybody's response when I told them that I like that was the same, "Why would you want that job? Fun meh?" Hahah I think it's fun so yaaayy! :p

Okay, better get back to practicing songs on the piano. I gotta make sure everything is perfect. Wish me luck! *fingers crossed*

I just love weddings  ♥

Don't you?

Feeling The Blues

Are you happy? 

That may seem like an innocent and easy question, doesn't it? But if you really think it over, are you?

It was that simple question that became the catalyst and changed the world in the book Fahrenheit 451 I studied for my Literature in English component for SPM last year.

I constantly ask myself that question. Sometimes, I feel that I'm on top of the world, that everything in my life is perfect and I'm at peace, but is that denial? They did say ignorance is bliss. There are also times that I feel like ending my life because everything sucks, nothing seems to go right nor the way I want it to be.

Sometimes I feel like I don't deserve to be happy and sometimes I feel like I shouldn't be happy because it usually ends in disappointments. Whenever I do feel a sense of happiness, something bad happens and that little ray of sunshine vanishes. The people who are heartless and cold with no expectations usually don't feel sad because they don't let their guard down that easily. Sometimes I feel that the walls we built around our hearts and souls should not be broken down that easily because it means becoming vulnerable and giving people a chance to hurt you.

Pardon my thoughts, just feeling super down and emo lately thanks to my never ending mood swings. A bad habit I developed years ago is whenever I'm feeling this way, I like to overthink and possibly do everything that makes me even more sad, as well as making the situation worse and feeling worse.

Now, back to reality. I went for amali then my first driving class yesterday. Amali was well, BORING. I didn't listen to a word the guy was saying. He was the same guy that spoke during my undang class as well and I have to say he is funny, with his jokes and never ending crap talk lol. The fun part was the driving. I was so afraid at first but when I started driving it got so fun omg I was like literally grinning. The best part was the mountain thingy, you know when you have to stop on top then slowly slide down the hill? I was going "Wheeeeeeee!" then couldn't stop laughing and going again and again. Oh the thrill and excitement! I am really looking forward to my next class. :D My instructor's husband was the one that taught me how to drive and he is a really nice guy, very patient with me indeed. And well, sitting in the car with me driving is sortaaaa a very scary thing. Hahah. He was sweating and breathing heavily shouting "I KNOW YOU'RE NOT AFRAID BUT I AM!" It was his birthday, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SIR! I hope you had the ride of your life. :)

Sorry I've been MIA for a few days. Been lazying around watching movies and stuff. I need to get my life together really, but I do enjoy this relaxing feeling especially after a hectic month of SPM. I'll try my best to stay active blogging, okay?

I'm holding tightly onto the things and people that make me happy.

Hoping they will not leave me. 

I'm an emotional wreck and I know it.

"Come to me, all of you who are struggling hard and carrying heavy loads, and I will give you rest. Put on my yoke, and learn from me. I'm gentle and humble. And you will find rest for yourselves. My yoke is easy to bear, and my burden is light." - Matthew 11: 28-30

New Beginnings

A BLESSED NEW YEAR to all my lovely readers! How is your first day of 2014 going so far? :) Did anything special or memorable happen today?

I spent my morning shopping with my grandma whom I love dearly. She's just so adorable. It's great spending time with her again after awhile, considering my SPM and busy December schedule. I promise to spend more time with her before I leave for college. I'm gonna miss her and her delicious home cooked food. ARGHH I DON'T WANNA GO! :( Anyway, spent the day chatting with my sister then sent her back to school in the evening. I cherish our heart-to-heart talks about everything and anything. You are like my best friend and although we fight, I still love you nonetheless. All the best in Form 4 life! I know you'll make the right choice and I've never doubted your abilities.

As for the students, school is starting tomorrow, are you ready? I'm so sorry to do this, I just had to. Forgive me but, I DON'T HAVE SCHOOL TOMORROW HAHAHA! (I spent the whole night teasing my sister and mother). Okay, I'll stop for now. :p Have you guys gotten your school bags ready? Books? Stationery? Holidays have come to an end and it's time to wake up early again tomorrow. Sleep early tonight and don't forget to set the alarm! Normally first days ain't that bad since you already have friends there and you will be reunited with them once again. Have fun and I wish you luck. :D Focus and concentrate in classes because you'll never know how important the teachings are to your studies. Oh, and don't forget to make some New Year's resolutions and actually make them happen this time okay? Try your best and never give up. 

I have no idea what to do tomorrow. I guess I'll be finishing Gossip Girl Season 3 then maybe do some reading. I haven't touched a book for quite some time now and I miss how they made me feel. I wonder what will all the newly graduates be doing?   

To Celine & Rachel, if you are reading this, GOOD LUCK IN JEREMIAH SCHOOL! Enjoy learning God's word and growing closer to Him. Take good care of yourselves there and have fun. xx

Maybe a song will lighten up the going-back-to-school mood. Here you go:

1st January 2014 will definitely be a day for me to remember forever. Here's to many more years to come. 

Ps. I love your resolution the most. ;) 

"You are the only exception.

And I'm on my way to believing."